To Be Held

I trick when I’m lonely

just to be held

The depression and loneliness

puts me through hell

It’s like the devil is in control

and he cast a spell

So sometimes when I’m lonely

I trick to be held

Even though I don’t know them

it’s still feels all right

I can pretend it’s love

as they hold me all night

Even though the church says it’s

wrong I don’t have it in me to fight

I’m just pretending

so I can be held through the night

Sometimes it’s not even

about the sex at all

It’s about feeling lonely

and having no one to call

It’s hard to explain

being happy then the fall

I just wanna be held that is all

It’s hard to explain

being happy then you hit a wall

I don’t want to fuck you

I want to be held that is all

Cause sometimes

I trick just to be held

The depression and loneliness

put me through hell

The Devil Is in control

and cast a spell

Sometimes I trick

just to be held